Reflections

Before my parents divorce I used to think that divorce was very common. It seemed like everyone around was leaving, there just wasn't anyone who stayed together anymore. They say 40% of marriages end in divorce but I was secretly convinced it was more like 70%. Now I feel like a freak, like I'm black marked somehow. I started counting it up, "Emily's parents are still married, Matt's parents are still married, Josh's parents are still married but Jill's aren't"... I guess that 40% rate of divorce is pretty accurate.

Writing has never been a strong point for me but I've been encouraged to journal my feelings. I want my kids to know someday what I went through and why. I want to remember how it felt. My intention is not to slam one or the other of my parents, but I will mention both. The goal is to heal my heart through God's amazing power and sort out my thoughts--or at least get them out. If by some small chance my journaling helps another through their pain, praise be to God.